✥ domesticated violence
"Each book is Lazarus. By opening the covers, you bid Lazarus to come forth. Ray Bradbury"
Emma. Author of the Black Rose series.
antiques. bohemian. retro. vintage. francophile. dystopia. f scott fitzgerald.

The Story of Moving Out: When the Bohemian met the 50's, stole a muscle car in France & drove it to Vegas before creating a library & living with Sherlock. Yep, pretty much sums up my style.
Title: darkness grows thick
Posted on: Saturday, 17 December 2011
Music: Eddie Money - Take Me Home Tonight 

From my Diary 2009:

'Tears came to my eyes watching people I didn't know go up to the front to get saved, to meet You. It just made me think how many tears Id cry if one of my friends was saved, if they knew You. It made me get my priorities right.

No matter whether I get a job or not, end up going on the dole or whatever, I won't lose faith in You. I won't let go of Your hand. I'm not going to blame You for any of this, but Im going to keep firmly fixed on the situation. I want to praise You tomorrow morning on the way to work and pray for a great day, but be praising You instead of my list of wants - get me through the day, don't let me cry in front of them. Again.

Emil was right in speaking Your word & I believe You do have hold of my hand, pulling me through this. '

"This" was me working for a government organisation I shouldn't name. Plenty of money in my pay packet. I cried every day. I cried every lunchtime, even before I could run out of the building and get in my car. I'd drive to Lake Illawarra and sit there crying. A man walked by once with his kid and I remember looking up & seeing him looking at me like I'd lost the plot. I think for a moment there I did.

I cried at the end of every day shift at 7pm, going to bed at 8 & crying til 10. It got to the point where my prayers to leave just became "Please"

This entry was written about then. I knew I was entering a dark place - I couldn't stand the teasing from 40-60 year olds. I couldn't stand the constant criticism of my English accent, which wasn't even that strong. I learnt very quickly to speak "Australian" I couldn't stand being crying like this, feeling like there wasn't a way out. So one day I held up my Bible at the beach & said God give me a word, something, show me if I walk in there right now & tell the Inspector Im quitting that Im not going to die, Im not going to have no money and be in massive debt for my car. Now that I have mental health knowledge & Im in a better frame of mind, I know I was depressed.

I flicked open the Bible and there in front of me, in pink highlighter was "YOU SHALL NOT DIE BUT LIVE"

I walked to the Inspector's office that day and told him I wanted to quit. He told me to give him 2 weeks to "fix it".  I gave him 2. Nothing changed. By this time I'd put in an application for my current job & the day I found out I had it, I quit this place. I lived. God got me through that. I've never felt His hand so strongly pulling me through.
Title: Setting Up Shop
Posted on: Monday, 24 October 2011
I dislike, with a burning hatred of loathing, the cheap 'modern' furniture that furniture shops try to palm off on you. You know, the ones where you're supposed to get great deals, but the stuff is all made in China & one good boot to the table sees it shattering on the floor. Not that you should be kicking tables.

With me setting up shop in either Sydney or Orange - I promise to make a choice this week - I needed furniture. And because I think the cheap modern gear - which, lemme point out, is a misnomer. It isn't cheap. They just tell you that price is cheap. And that everyone has white sofa's these days. What happens the first time you spill your Millers on it huh? Aint gonna be white no more. Anyways, I think the cheap modern stuff looks passé & gauche so I trawled an antique shop.

Here's what I bought:


Edwardian dining chairs. Red leather on the seat & back, with brass studs holding them in place. They remind me so much of Game of Thrones. I can just see Ned Stark slouched in one. 


Round dining table (so I can make Knights of the Round Table jokes obvs) The table is not Edwardian, it looks more 60's to me as the legs dovetail down into a common 60's design. 


Lounge room set. 1960's 3 seater sofa, ottoman, Grandfather & Grandmother chairs. The arms of all chairs have this beautiful, intricate fretwork that's very retro. I want a crochet rug to go over the back of the sofa - cause really I'm 85 - & my bestie Lydia got me some awesome cushions that'll look beautiful on these babies. I also have a 1960's coffee table that will fit beautifully between these. 


I saw the Grandfather & Grandmother chairs and thought they were awesome. I'd heard of them but not come across them. The chairs are different sizes, with the tall one being the Grandfather chair meant for a male, hence a higher back & a slightly more gruff look. The more delicate one is for females. 


THIS. This is my baby. 1930's Art Deco credenza. Plan to put my Only Fools & Horses memorabilia in here, my china etc. It's beautiful. 
Title: Personal Style Inspirations:
Posted on: Thursday, 22 September 2011
 Kat Von D. I love everything about this woman. Except Jesse James. I love her style, her artwork, her many changing hair colours, the Motley Crue tribute tattoo, the decor she used in High Voltage & the fact she bought her own castle & is renovating it.

Her office in High Voltage is  the Day of the Dead meets the 1950's. My ideal mash up.




Maryse Oullet. I find her quite possibly the most arrogant female wrestler to grace the planet & would love to see her take on some of the TNA Knockouts. 'Cause WWE is more about standing right in a bikini than dropping a Swanton. Sigh.

I love her personal style, which is Toddlers & Tiaras for a grown up. Also the absolute confidence she has in herself. And the hair. I want the hair. I have dark brown hair - soon to be dyed - but there's no way it would ever go that beautiful platinum blonde. Double sigh.

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Posted on: Wednesday, 21 September 2011


This is the Story of Moving Out.

Expect to find photos of my finds - like 1970's phones & 1900's silver & blogs on my style. It can be described as 'Stevie Nicks met Vivien Leigh & they both got along really well with Springsteen.' I collect antiques & plan to furnish wherever this little shack of mine turns out to be (depending on New Grad) with as many antiques & vintage finds as I can. I write. I collect. I photoblog. I bargain like a boss.

I have antique silver & Staffordshire china, but no fleets of bookcases or dining table. Keep your priorities straight x  

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Posted on: Tuesday, 20 September 2011
The life & style of Emma Butler
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